Michelle Williams Reveals How Her Battle with Depression Almost Ended Her Relationship With Chad Johnson Twice

Michelle Williams’ battle with depression often affects her relationship with Chad Johnson, causing the couple to break up twice in a span of several months.

via Page Six:

The Destiny’s Child singer first ended her engagement weeks after Johnson popped the question in March, then again just before she checked herself into a mental health facility in July, according to People.

“I thought I was over depression, I thought, ‘I’m good!’ I’ve got love, I’m working out,” the 38-year-old star told the publication. “But I was so angry. The rage built up in me. I did not attempt suicide, but I was questioning [life].”

Having recognized the signs of depression from earlier in her career, she began noticing a change around the time of Coachella in April.

“The entire year we were rehearsing every day for hours,” the Gospel singer added. “I was burying it, and before you knew it, I was looking up out of the pit like, ‘Oh my God.’”

During the rocky months, Williams apparently tried to cut Johnson out of the picture, but he stayed on board supporting her the entire way.

“I would’ve understood [if he left],” Williams explained. “He’s been praying for a wife. He didn’t pray for a depressed wife.”

Today, their relationship is moving forward and they are undergoing premarital counseling while she continues her own private counseling.

“People fall off the fitness wagon, people fall off the wellness wagon, but I can’t fall off the [therapy] wagon,” the star reiterated. “I have to get healed to live this happy life.”

Michelle Williams And Chad Johnson Are Waiting Until Their Married To ‘Consummate The Relationship’

Michelle Williams and Chad Johnson will be making the bibles rock until their married — and their road to marriage will be documented in their new OWN reality reality series.

via Us Weekly:

A press release for the show, which is titled Chad Loves Michelle, reveals that the former Destiny’s Child member, 38, and the pastor, 41, have “vowed to consummate the relationship only after they are wed.”

“Having been together for a year and never in the same city for more than seven days, the newly engaged couple is turning to intensive pre-marital counseling to help prepare them for life together as husband and wife,” the press release reads. “Both are relocating to Los Angeles from different cities in the months leading up to their wedding, but not to the same bedroom.”

OWN teased that each episode of the series will find Williams and Johnson tackling real-life, everyday issues, including her battle with mental health issues. (She announced on Instagram in July that she was seeking professional help.)

The singer and the sports chaplain, who met at a spiritual retreat in Arizona, got engaged in March after a year of dating.


“The timing couldn’t have been more perfect,” she gushed to Us Weekly exclusively in May. “I’ll never forget the day he proposed! We were in Pebble Beach, California — one of the most beautiful beaches I’ve ever seen — surrounded by a few friends. He presented me a video of him flying to my hometown of Rockford, Illinois, and going on a proposal tour. He went to a few of my family members that are really, really dear to me, and of course my parents. I’m a traditional girl, so if he didn’t ask my parents first, I probably would have said no! After the video ended, he was on one knee and he asked me to marry him. I was wailing, ‘I will, I will, I will!’”

Chad Loves Michelle premieres on OWN on Saturday, November 3, at 9 p.m. ET.